Lee James Mills

we miss our daddy x

hi there dad i know it were yesterday your aneversery.me and mia miss you x and it is my birthday on friday and i will be 10 we are goin to the cinima and then for food i wish you could have been there but i know your lookin down on us x its also mia birthday on the 12 of may she will be 8 she is a right pain ha ha xxxxx love you daddy x from mia see ya dad love brandon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Brandon Thwaites April 19, 2009

3 Years Ago Today...

Hi Little Brother,
Just got back from visiting your Grave, I can't believe it has been 3 years already, its gone so quick and yet losing you is still as raw as if it was yesterday. I'm sat here feeling numb wondering what I can say to you, I like poetry so lets put it in a poem:
'I said a prayer for you today,
my little brother, Far away...
Three years have passed since you have gone
One second would have been too long...'

'I prayed for God to keep you safe,
Prayed by a man who's lost his Faith...
A man who'll never love another,
The way he did his little brother...'

'I asked 'Lord keep him safe for me',
Until again i'll with him be...
I also said a prayer for me,
That I'll see you again Lee Lee xxx'

I love you and miss you so much,
Sleep well little Brother xxx.

Chris Shaw (Brother) April 19, 2009

A Eulogy for Lees Children

I wasn’t going to post this tribute, but because I have been so tickled with memories I associate with the ‘worth a fortune’ post submitted by Amanda, I thought the story behind the post might be a nice Eulogy to share with Lees Children. So this is for Cameron, Brandon, Mia and Grace


The story behind Worth a Fortune!!

Lee loved to draw and doodle, has did his father (your granddad, Jimmy). Around the time of Mia’s birth Lee decided to turn his hand to sketching for a living (because he wanted to patent a space rocket/aeroplane design he had come up with!!).

First he sketched the big house opposite to where we lived, and then he sent Amanda to ask the people who lived there if they wanted to buy his sketch, they said NO. So, he decided that because we had a caravan at Cleethorpes, (which we visited every weekend), he would draw static caravans instead of houses and that Amanda could sell these pictures to either the caravan owners or holidaymakers. Unfortunately none of the caravan owners or any of the holiday makers wanted his sketches either. Hence why he told Amanda during a laughing fit, after she refused to approach anyone else that his sketches would be worth a fortune one day!!

It wasn’t always a “No” though for our resident Rembrandt and his accomplis !!

Around that same time he drew a picture in the back of Amanda’s school book of a mosha character holding a skateboard. It was spotted by the only mosha in her class, who wanted to know who drew it? She told him her uncle had, and that for £2 she could get the picture drawn for him!!….Lee didn’t wait for confirmation, he drew 3 copies, that same evening in the hope that the lad might have gone home and told a couple of his mates about the picture.

Unfortunately, only the one sketch was sold the following day (to a lad who went without dinner, because he had no extra cash on him to buy the picture!!) On the plus side though Lee did let Amanda keep half of the money, so it turned out to be a mini success for the artist and the sales woman. But a bit of a loss for NASSA

I hope stories like these will be of comfort to you throughout life, because he loved you all very much, Thanks Amanda, for jogging my memory with your post, it really made me laugh recalling the trail of events and hearing Lees infectious laugh in my mind x

Jan Shaw January 30, 2009

worth a fortune!!

Hiya Lee, i've just been clearing out my room from my mums house cos i've just got my first house!! and i found your sketch pad from years ago when i was little, there was some of the pics you drew when we was at the caravan and they just reminded me of your dimples and what you told me when you had finished each sketch... "I'll let you keep hold of these ones mand cos these will be worth a fortune one day!" well Lee i just want you to know they are to me and i'll always keep them but... maybe you could send a sign to a buyer though cos for all i love them if i'm sitting on a gold mine its only fair i show them to the rest of the world, lol, rest in peace, all my love forever and always Amanda xxx

Amanda January 15, 2009

Happy 29th Birthday

Happy birthday little brother, had internet problems yesterday so this is a belated one...

How the years change us Lee, I sit here wondering what you would have been like yesterday celebrating your 29th Birthday, probably spending it with Grace, I saw her just before Christmas, you would be so proud of her she is gorgeous, as are Cameron, Brandon and Mia, all your children are beautiful and I love them to bits, I am trying to see them as often as I can, but not as much as I would like, we have finally made some progress with getting your headstone sorted out, it feels like we need to get this final act done for you so you can truly rest in peace, I think my daughter has adopted some of your traits, Madison is so defiant and doesn't like to do as she is told, which is so frustrating, then she can melt your heart in the next second, a feeling I have come to know well from you!!!, and baby Jonah just likes to exercise his lungs all night, keeping me up I might add!!, I feel about fifty, and look even older, I don't wear time very well :). I miss you so much lee, and think about you often, at least you will always be 26, all these birthdays you will have and never age, so when i do see you again and im a little old man (hopefully!!!) I'm sure you will have fun taking the pi*% out me, you always did laugh at your own jokes more than anyone else..lol. Anyway thats enough of my ramblings, love you and miss you so much, sleep peacefully little brother,and happy birthday xxx

Chris Shaw (Brother) January 12, 2009

Hi Lee,

Grandma Mills passed away this morning, I hope you are with her, look after each other, I will miss her, and I miss you too, love you both xxx

Chris Shaw (Brother) August 28, 2008

Hi there dad i miss you every day i dont rember much.But i have a photo off you and my mom tells me you loved me so i dont need the memories thats fine as long as you loved me.I will never forget you daddy hope you are watcing over me and brandon and are pleased with what you see love you always mia x x

Mia (Daughter) July 10, 2008

Missing You...

Hi Little Brother,
I can't believe its been 2 years without you, although it might as well have been 2 days, the pain never goes away, and neither will you, wherever you are its always here with me, I miss you so badly, and will always love you completely, rest peacefully and sleep easily, Chris xxx

Chris (Brother) April 18, 2008

Happy 28th Birthday Lee

Happy Birthday Little Brother,
Im not very good with what to say, so here are some ramblings,
I hope its ok,

Never thought it could be you,
I so much never wanted it to.
A massive part of me just disappeared.
When I heard those words I had always feared.
My tears will never go away,
My heart feels like its been thrown away.
When I heard the news,
I fell to my knees.
Not wanting to get up, how could it be you?
My mind screamed this cannot really be true,
Memories running through my head, not believing my little brother was dead.
I stood in that awful place looking at you,
wanting to shake you, hold you, and comfort you too,
I couldn't see those big brown eyes,
Or that smile of yours, your mischievous disguise
God, take this pain away from me.
And give me back my brother Lee
I never got to say goodbye,
I want someone to answer me why.
I was too late to take his place,
but all I can do now is wait.
Till I see again my Lee Lees Face.

Im really sorry this is a bit morbid on your Birthday, but it still hurts so much Lee, I miss you Little Brother, I Love you, Happy Birthday xxx

Chris (Brother) January 11, 2008

Thankyou

i would just like to thank everyone for all their kind comments towards Lee. On behalf of Lee, we would like to wish everyone a Merry Christmas & a Happy new year!!

Love
Mary, Dean, Chris, Lee, Claire, James, Corinne & Dalton
xxxxx

Corinne (Mother) December 25, 2007